On November 29th, 2022,
I’m the happiest man on Earth.
She likes me back
But, I didn’t know how I would view love would change for the rest of my life
January 8th, 2023, 12:42 PM,
Something’s wrong.
I don’t know what it is but I know something’s off
This sinking feeling in my stomach
I’ll talk to her tomorrow about it
I hope it’s not what I think it is.
January 9th, 2023, 11:42 PM,
A part of me died.
It’s over between us
I haven’t cried like this since I was a kid
This time it’s different than all the other times
This time my heart broke into pieces that can
Never be fully put back together again
The feelings haunt me like a ghost
You’ll live in my head forever
Whether I like it or not, please
Get out of my head.
A part of me wants to take what you took from me
My happiness, my ability to love
I want to hate you
But I know I could never do that to someone as
Sweet as you
I can never hurt you
I can never hate you
I can’t
You don’t deserve it.
The worst part is that I know if you ask to take me back
I would say yes without a moment of hesitation
You showed me how beautiful love can be and I will
Forever be grateful
Maybe it was just some fun little experience for you but
You were my everything, and now that you’re gone
I’m left with nothing.
May 11th, 2023
Freshman year’s over
Finally
I’m finally able to be able to rid myself of the image of
Your smile
Your kindness
Everything about you
And know
I’m free
Of you and these feelings
August 8th, 2023
This is my first time seeing her in 3 months
It’s nice seeing her again
We even have two classes together
She’s so nice and has a sweet smile
Wait
What’s this feeling?
No
No
NONONONONONONO
Go away
Don’t come back, please
Get out of my head.
November 14th, 2023
Soon, it’s going to be a year to the day that my life changed forever
I see that you’re with someone else now, and I don’t care
But a part of me can’t bring himself to let go and I hate it
But eventually, I’ll have to move on
You did, so why can’t I?
I realized that I can’t run away from these feelings like I’ve tried to do in the past
I have to confront them directly
I will throw away these feelings into the fires of my rage and sorrow
And watch them burn to ash
Even if I have to get rid of a part of me to do so
I won’t let these feelings hurt me anymore
The thought of “what if” will not haunt me
The thought of you will not haunt me
You will not haunt me
I’m tired of loving you, so please
get out of my head.
